Vesper

: xenabrosnan; October 11th, 16:17

Current Mood:: productive

Wow,it really has been a long time for a new post,over a month!Forgive me,I don't have time to live properly,I work like a robot to get things done.School is needy,Frod is needy and I'm in the middle of it all.Always homework,never free time.Oh,who am I kidding?I've got free time just to sing a little and watch videos or write my silly thoughts down.This leads to me not giving my 100% to study so I'm not the best.
I'm bored actually and every day is like the one before and so on..What changes??Hmm,people and peoples' reactions to what they hear or see from me.
The last 4 months I got a new obsession: MICHAEL JACKSON,uh-uh!!I know by heart almost every song,every noise,the demos,the hee-hees,the moans,the rumors,the true stories,the tapes,the moves,the concerts,the pictures,the books,the quotes.I studied MJ a lot!& I created a shelf in my room dedicated to him,I got a poster from the BAD era and I live to breathe him.Kinda hypocritical,you might say.I don't know,I think if I was a hypocrite I'd only have him as a pm:rest in peace MJ for a week(tops).But NOOOOO,he is my pm even now,my diary starts everyday with Dear Michael and my notebook contains pics and quotes/lyrics by him,he is my concern,my Applehead,my child,my inspiration,my everything.He keeps me going,he keeps me alive,to put it like that.So,maybe,I'm a fan-challenge me;)
I can't wait to watch THIS IS IT.I know I'm gonna cry and laugh at the same time,I know I'm gonna be filled with emotion,but that's what I'm looking for: feelings and not a passive mood.

I suppose that's enough for today,gotta go back to my homework and be the best.

Agent M.

Acapella

: xenabrosnan; September 1st, 13:44

Current Mood:: nostalgic

Dance of life

: xenabrosnan; July 27th, 22:12

Current Mood:: impressed

Current Music:: Someone in the dark-Michael Jackson

"So what does a star do after it quits shining?" I ask myself. "Maybe it dies."
"Oh, no," a voice in my head says. "A star can never die. It just turns into a smile and melts back into the cosmic music, the dance of life."

-M.J.J

But nobody came to her soon

: xenabrosnan; July 21st, 21:28

Current Mood:: pensive

Birthday

: xenabrosnan; July 9th, 19:30

Current Mood:: rejected

I always liked my birthday.I feel as if this day belongs to me and I get to be queen for a day.It's not the reality though.It's a day just like any other day only people send you ''happy birthday'' via sms.They don't always mean it,I know.They try to show emotion,to show they care,to consider themselves kind and thoughtful.I'm bitter this day.Another year,the same wishes,the same sins,the same moments.Deja vu all over again.Not a giant cake,an honest hug,an original wish.Just words.They sound empty to me.
I share the same bday with Courtney Love,Jack White,Tom Hanks and many others.Maybe we are special.Cancers poisoning and hurting others.So,wish me luck and cheers to a new beginning.

^Last year,same day^
I want to be the girl with the most cake?..Well,not today.

Magical Child (poem by MJ)

: xenabrosnan; June 30th, 12:45

Current Mood:: pessimistic

Once there was a child and he was free
Deep inside, he felt the laughter
The mirth and play of nature's glee
Beauty, love was all he'd see

He knew his power was the power of God
He was so sure, they considered him odd
This power of innocence, of compassion, of light
Threatened the priests and created a fight
In endless ways they sought to dismantle
This mysteroius force which they could not handle

In endless ways they tried to destroy
His simple trust, his boundless joy
His invincible armor was a shield of bliss
Nothing could touch it, no venom, no hiss

The child remained in a state of grace
He wasn't confined in time or place
In Technicolor dreams, he frolicked and played
While acting his part, in Eternity he stayed

Soothsayers came and fortunes were told
Some were vehement, others were bold
In denouncing this child, this perplexing creature
With the rest of the world he shared no feature
IS he real?He is so strange
His unpredictable nature knows no range
He puzzles us so, is he straight?
What's his destiny?What's his fate?

And while they whispered and conspired
Through endless rumors to get him tired
To kill his wonder, trample him near
Burn his courage, fuel his fear
The child remained just simpel, sincere

All he wanted was the mountain high
Color the clouds, paint the sky
Beyond these boundaries, he wanted to fly
In nature's scheme, never to die

Don't stop this child, he's the father of man
Don't cross his way, he's part of the plan
I am that child, but so are you
You've just forgotten, just lost the clue

Inside your heart sits a Seer
Between his thoughts, he can hear
A melody simple but wondrously clear
The music of life, so precious, so dear

If you could for one moment know
This spark of creation, this exquisite glow
You would come and dance with me
Kindle this fire so we could see
All the children of the Earth
Wave their magic and give new birth
To a world of freedom with no pain
A world of joy, much more sane

Deep inside, you know it's true
Just find that child, it's hiding in you.

The king is dead

: xenabrosnan; June 29th, 14:56

Current Mood:: moody

poem in the night

: xenabrosnan; June 13th, 22:07

Poetic justice

: xenabrosnan; June 13th, 21:26

Current Mood:: pensive

Long afloat on ship less oceans
I did all my best to smile
'Til your singing eyes and fingers
Drew me loving to your isle
And you sang, "Sail to me, sail to me,
Let me enfold you,
Here I am, here I am
Waiting to hold you"
Did I dream you dreamed about me?
Were you hare when I was fox?
Now my foolish boat is leaning
Broken lovelorn on your rocks
For you sing, "Touch me not, touch me not,
come back tomorrow: O my heart,
O my heart shies from the sorrow"
I am puzzled as the newborn child
I am troubled at the tide:
Should I stand amid the breakers?
Should I lie with death my bride?
Hear me sing, "Swim to me, swim to me,
Let me enfold you,
Here I am, Here I am,
Waiting to hold you"

^{She was the poem he could never write,
the picture he could never paint.
She was the butterfly he tried to pin to a tree,
but whenever he came close,
she'd be away with a simple flap of her wings.
She was something special to him,
the bittersweet poisen.
He was more understanding of this hell than everyone thought;
he had sat with the dead,
stayed with the man who was killed by his own disease,
the yellow god he called home.
He lived through the injections,
the pain and trust in the needle.
Somehow he lived through it all,
all her ups and downs.
He watched her go insane.
She was like a roller coaster,
only without the saftey belts.
But somehow he lived through it all
while she died.
Not physically,
but mentally.
And when she finally returned,
he was dead.
He had no soul,
though he was still alive.
He was nothing but the air.
And she let him go.}

Not my kind of summer

: xenabrosnan; June 12th, 21:24

Current Mood:: lonely

Dans la chaleur de la nuit qui s’enroule tout autour de moi
Je marche seule sans savoir pourquoi tu n’es plus là
Ca tourne dans ma tête
Et tout s’arrête
Ta voix me parle tout bas
Je ne sais plus où j’en suis, je ne vois plus que toi

(no subject)

: xenabrosnan; June 9th, 20:11

Current Mood:: apathetic

Current Music:: Lonely Day-SOAD

“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.”

“Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you.”

“I don't want to be alone, I want to be left alone.”

Secretary

: xenabrosnan; June 5th, 14:12

Current Mood:: nostalgic

In one way or another I've always suffered. I didn't know why exactly. But I do know that I'm not so scared of suffering now. I feel more than I've ever felt and I've found someone to feel with. To play with. To love in a way that feels right for me. I hope he knows that I can see that he suffers too. And that I want to love him.

-Why do you cut yourself, Lee?
-I don't know.
-Is it that sometimes the pain inside has to come to the surface, and when you see evidence of the pain inside you finally know you're really here? Then, when you watch the wound heal, it's comforting... isn't it?
-I... That's a way to put it.

Who's to say that love needs to be soft and gentle?

discover_me

: xenabrosnan; June 5th, 13:05

Current Mood:: satisfied

Η Αφροδίτη στον Καρκίνο επιθυμεί κυρίως τη συναισθηματική ασφάλεια, ενώ χαρακτηρίζεται από βαθιά και ευαίσθητα συναισθήματα, με το ρίσκο βέβαια ότι μπορεί εύκολα να πληγωθεί. Η προσέγγιση στον έρωτα έχει πάντοτε αυτό τον χαρακτήρα της ευαισθησίας και της «μητρικής» φροντίδας, μπορεί όμως και να δείξει σημάδια κτητικότητας, σε στιγμές συναισθηματικής ανασφάλειας ή αλλαγής διάθεσης.

Η Σελήνη στον Σκορπιό είναι μια μυστικοπαθής Σελήνη που έχει μια τάση να συγκρατεί τα συναισθήματά της, ακόμα και για μεγάλο χρονικό διάστημα, ελπίζοντας ότι έτσι θα καταφέρει όταν νιώσει έτοιμη να τα αντιμετωπίσει ή και να τα αλλάξει. Είναι έντονη, παρορμητική και δεν μπορεί να αντέξει την απόρριψη.

Κλήρος της Τύχης Στον ΑΙΓΟΚΕΡΩ
Δίνει μια τάση αυστηρότητας και πειθούς στην παράδοση. Κάνει την σκέψη περισσότερο βαθιά παρά πλατιά, συχνά ποιοτική. Υπάρχει μια υπευθυνότητα για κάθε τι το κοινωνικό ή πνευματικό. Τακτικά δημιουργεί στα άτομα μια δυνατή πίστη για την αποστολή και την σκοπιμότητα του έργού τους. Παραδείγματα βλέπουμε τους Νοστράδαμο, Ράλφ Βαλντό Εμερσον, Αβραάμ Λίνκολν.

MC στον Καρκίνο

Ο Καρκίνος στο MC σάς κάνει ν' αναζητάτε με πολλούς τρόπους την ποιότητα και όχι την ποσότητα. Δεν ψάχνετε, λοιπόν, για την επαγγελματική επιτυχία, αλλά περισσότερο επιδιώκετε να συνδεθείτε με τους ανθρώπους. Δεν έχετε πολλές ανησυχίες γι΄ αυτά που συμβαίνουν έξω, αλλά γ' αυτά που συμβαίνουν γύρω σας.
Η μεγάλη δυσκολία για εσάς μπορεί να εντοπιστεί στο γεγονός πως πολλές φορές η κατεύθυνση, ο οδηγός, η συνήθης εικόνα εξουσίας απλά λείπει από τη ζωή σας. Αυτό έχει ως αποτέλεσμα να πρέπει να βρείτε τον δικό σας τρόπο σ' ένα συχνά εχθρικό –όπως τον βλέπετε εσείς- κόσμο. Μόλις όμως βρείτε το συναισθηματικό σας κέντρο -και αυτό είναι που έχει τη μεγαλύτερη σημασία στον κόσμο για σας- μπορείτε να γίνετε πεισματικά επίμονοι και ανυποχώρητοι. Το σημάδι του Καρκίνου είναι ο κάβουρας. Όπως ακριβώς αυτός, έτσι κι εσείς πηγαίνετε ένα βήμα μπροστά, βρίσκετε πως ο κόσμος γύρω σας είναι επισφαλής και έτσι κάνετε 2 βήματα πίσω. Το μήνυμά σας είναι η ασφάλεια χωρίς αλλαγές. Αυτό είναι τρόπος συμπεριφοράς, μια πνευματική θεωρία. Το ζητούμενο είναι όμως η αλλαγή και πώς θα την διαχειριστείτε. Αν το καταφέρετε αυτό, έχετε καταφέρει να εξελιχθείτε. Επειδή έχετε αυτήν την απέχθεια για τις αλλαγές, απαιτείτε στη σταδιοδρομία σας συνοχή και ασφάλεια. Είστε όμως αρκετά προσαρμοστικοί. Στα χαμηλότερα επίπεδα αυτής της όψης, αισθάνεστε πως η ζωή συνωμοτεί για να σας οδηγήσει στις αλλαγές.
Έχετε μια πονηρία ως επιχειρηματική αίσθηση, αλλά τα χρήματα δεν είναι κίνητρο για την σταδιοδρομία σας. Τυπικές εργασίες για εσάς είναι νοσοκόμος και γενικά ό,τι έχει να κάνει με φροντίδα, παιδική μέριμνα, κοινωνική εργασία, τροφοδοσία, μαγειρική, ιστορία και αρχιτεκτονική.

Αν έχετε Αρη στον Ταύρο
Για σας, ο ορισμός του αληθινού άντρα, σίγουρα δεν περιλαμβάνει τους ασταθείς, αναποφάσιστους ή τους πολύ σοφιστικέ και «πλαδαρούς» τύπους. Αντίθετα το κύριο μενού σας είναι οι αφοσιωμένοι στις σταθερές και σίγουρες αξίες της ζωής. Οι γυναίκες με Ταυρίσιο Αρη συμπαθούν τους απλούς, δυνατούς, αρρενωπούς άντρες. Συνήθως προτιμούν εκείνους που τους αρέσουν τα μαστορέματα, οι χειρωνακτικές κατασκευές ή ο,τιδήποτε ανάλογο και όχι όσων το χόμπι τους είναι η γκαρνταρόμπα τους. Τους αρέσουν τα απλά, σεξουαλικά, αλλά ανυπερθέτως, αισθησιακά αρσενικά

Tags: cancer, me, mystery, zodiac

Corny But I kinda like it:$

: xenabrosnan; June 4th, 16:04

Current Mood:: sad

Glitterglue

: xenabrosnan; June 2nd, 15:07

Current Mood:: cheerful

If there is something
That I might find
Look around corners
Try to find peace of mind, I say
Where would you go
If you were me?
Trying to keep a straight course is not easy

Somebody special
Looking at me
Same kind of reaction
Wanted to cry with me
Lived here and there
Its too easy to say
But the service just a game a game-ame-ame-ame

I would do anything for you
I would come all day
I would swim all the oceans blue hu
I would walk a thousand miles
Reveal my secrets
More than enough for me to share
I will put roses around the door
Sit in the garden
Growing potatoes by the score

Shake your head girl, with your ponytail
Takes me right back [when you were young]
Throw your precious gifts into the air
Watch them fall down [when you were young]

Your love - feel you put them on the ground
It use to fall apart [when you were young]

Your love - feel you put them on the ground
The hills were higher [when you were young]

Your love - feel you put them on the ground
The trees were taller then [when you were young]

Your love - feel you put them on the ground
The grass was greener [when you were young]

Your love could feel you with devotion
Used to walk upon [when you were young]

FINALLY!

: xenabrosnan; June 1st, 15:09

I am special

: xenabrosnan; May 25th, 14:00

Current Mood:: cheerful

Although July 9 Cancers are extremely ambitious, they're likely to experience a period in their lives when their greatest talents are subjugated to the daily needs of making a living. They are great role models. They have the ability to be happy with few material possessions.

:):):):):)

The natural leadership and bold and kinetic energy of these people have a way of drawing friends easily. They are passionate and exciting in love matters, yet they also cling to the object of their love. This can make a relationship complicated at times, unless communication is good.

Children and Family

July 9 natives can be secretive about their family backgrounds. This could be because there was serious upset in the family unit when they were children -- or perhaps they've simply managed to reinvent themselves in a way that's more pleasing to them.

Health

July 9 people have a strong interest in their health. They eat well and love to exercise. However, they need to supplement their diet with plenty of vitamins. They also require at least eight hours of sleep each night.

Career and Finances

July 9 natives are concerned with making a success of their lives. They have a good head for business and climb the corporate ladder easily. Because money is a great motivator for them, they handle this resource carefully. They know the value of a dollar; they're not likely to spend their hard-earned money frivolously.

Dreams and Goals

July 9 people are ambitious, positive, and eager to succeed. They will sacrifice a great deal of their time and effort in order to make their goals a reality. When July 9 folks reach their goals, especially financial ones, they are invariably generous to those they love.

Nobody's Daughter